Having had a look around many of the free uncensored or lightly censored forums over the past eleven months, I have just recently discovered I'm not who or what I see as myself.
For most of my life I have been an introvert and a loner. Social interaction in groups was always difficult for me. I became tongue-tied, unable to think clearly, especially with girls and women. Especially among desirable women.
Tongue-tied, that was key. If you've never experienced the feeling, you can't get the whole implication of it.
Playing on some of these forums as I have been for nearly a year, I find myself able to be more open and more willing to say what's on my mind without worrying about what others might think. It's my version of telling it as it is. Actually telling it as I see it.
As far as participating in group chat rooms, I don't do it. I much prefer one-on-one chat whether my chat partner is male or female. One-on-one meaning two way conversation on line. At times three chatters are OK. Like when I meet a couple on line.
I'm also finding out that I like chat partners to be active participants rather than me holding down the whole conversation. On sexforums.com, I avoid directly asking women to camchat with me. First of all, I don't want to look like I'm too eager. And I seldom know in advance how far my correspondent likes to go as far as talking about sex is concerned. So I always feel the woman out first and pretty much let her take the lead.
I decided today, that I'm a voyeur and not an exhibitionist. Any time I'm forced to say why I camchat only in a limited way, is that I don't have anything special to show. There are hundreds of members on all the forums who have long dicks, or fat dicks. My limp member is totally unimpressive. But I do like to be an audience for exhibitionists, whether solo female or couples, or even groups, I suppose.
I have at times watched couples on video calls while they prepare, set up, and have all kinds of sex on camera, knowing I'm the only one watching. Talking with the people before, during, and after is a total turn on. I have started looking for new exhibitionists to connect with, as all but one of my connections have moved on.
I find that I don't have enough in common with younger women, 35 and under, to carry on with conviction. I like to have a good cyber-fuck with women, but after awhile the young women want a young, vigorous fuck. For the most part, I try to keep it real, meaning I'm 70 years old, know how I used to do it, but have lost the ability to penetrate and pleasure women that way. I do like to describe encounters involving only fingers, mouth and toys.
More mature women grew up in an era before women became the sexual beings they are today. Not so open about how much they like sex, and are often a little unsure of themselves. These open sex forums are bringing them more into the open.
When the cyber-fuck is over, now what do you talk about? Even one generation difference shows up in friendly social conversation. I am often amazed at what my children don't know. And that's the main reason I prefer more mature women for conversation. We have more of a common core of experience. Well, I've rambled on for long enough for one day. Keep everything moist and your thighs soft. OK