Well if you seen me on the live chat, you know me as that nice, silent, always says hi, can be a smartass at times but I mean well. Well as I said on my profile, I do love porn...I do love hentai...I jack off...I recently started to cyber...and all that stuff. So yeah I guess you could say I'm a horny college kid and yeah it's true....though most everyone I truly know has never seen my sexual side of me....
Well where to start...I discovered the "wonders" of porn when I was 12 by an accidental link. Funny..huh? Well before I knew it I continued to search up more and more sites (The free ones with the little video samples) and liked the female form more and more. Now of course I kept this a secret from my mom. Why? Well a couple of reasons...
1: Obviously I was too young.
2: I was afraid she would never look at me the same way again.
3: I was her little angel.
And I was and still am. I'm very nice and helpful, never fight, an easy person to get along with....it's just I keep my sexual side a secret. So yeah after watching all of that porn..it took 3 months for me to discover masturbation. I did it for the first time while in the shower and it was such an odd but great feeling. So through my life I would continue to watch porn and occasionally jack off keeping it all hidden. Surprinsgly, I have never been caught once... and to this day I still have not. Now I know that I'm 19 and what I do is what I do...but...I just can't help but to feel ashamed if anyone knew.
Why? I just don't want to be labeled as a pervert. I already admitted to myself I am...but I don't want my family and friends to think of me as that guy who loves games and computers and is a pervert. Still sometimes I think that maybe if I did showed a little of my sexual side I would be more inclined to talk to girls and start a relationship. Who knows...maybe I coulda found a girl with the same interest as me...sexual interests included.
Ah well...at least I have the internet to show this side too...and it seems I'm accepted. I'm not the one who is so horny and perverted that I disrespect women and harass them...I still have my friendly and joking side. I guess one day I'll show the world the other side of me....but for now...keeping it locked off is my decision,,,