Vicki game me some, well, I think of it as sad news, she said that she started yesterday, after being on B.C. for over a month, she said that she passed a sizeable amount of soft tissue, which she though was one of her cysts, but a girl at school, said that it wasn't a cyst. She seems to think, and now so do Vicki and myself, to have had a miscarriage. She told me this yesterday and I've done nothing but think about it since then, wondering if her friend is right or just full of crap...
When Vicki told me about it, she said that I must've felt better that she wasn't pregnant and to me it felt like I was stabbed in the heart. I mean, I may not be ready completely to be a father and all, but I would never ever ever wish for that to happen, never in a million years, I'd rather be a daddy than to have that happen. I dunno, when she said that, it kind of made me feel like a cold heartless bastard.
Moving onto something a little more pleasant, went and saw the Faculty Musical at TECH High School last night, and I thought it was just funny as hell with all the cast fuck ups, but it was a slap in the face to me to see all of the fuck ups made by the stage crew, I spent a whole year working on the stage crew and it was just pathetic to me to see what it had become. It seems the new teacher/person in charge is more concerned about all of the crew members having new headset walkie talkies than the production value of the show, I was just super pissed off to see all that.
Today, I haven't done anything worth while, worked a little bit on my HW for school, crap that's really giving me problems, but what else is new, I'll make my way through it somehow or another. I've been watching TV and I even played some of my Punisher video game, pretty good game, although i am still getting used to the controls, it does have some very graphic animations though.
Mainly, I've been hanging out, I've had my black cherry candles lit most of the day, letting them burn, they smell awesome.