I'm a virgin and have never been in a relationship. The closest I've come to anything sexual was a girl randomly grabbing my penis while clothed in school when I was younger, I was embarrassed it wasn't in private but I enjoyed it. I used to get very hard erections after that seeing her in school even though before that I never found her attractive.
I'm in my late 20s now still a virgin and haven't had the opportunity to touch a girl sexually since that incident.
Whenever I see a girl I find hot I go crazy inside. My heart races, I'll get a little hard but not fully, sometimes pre ejaculate comes out, but I get an overwhelming feeling I want to grab her and do something sexual, of course I can't and don't. After I get depressed, mabye it's because I'm single and want a relationship and sexual partner so seeing beautiful girls is a sexual tease to me if I can't have them.
I was never really into porn I watched it but rarely did it excite me, I liked seeing ordinary girls in public or magazines clothed and fantasize taking their clothes off.
I've been dry humping daily or multiple times a day since I was younger I've always had the urge to do it and if I dont I get angry or depressed. After I feel relaxed for a while and not as sex crazed but the feelings come back hours later. This is a problem in public because I've learned to curb my public masturbation but if im out or at a party with a hot girl I can't do anything and I get depressed and just want to leave to go home and fantasize and masturbate.
This is affecting my life because I hate not being able to have sex or touch a woman.
I've gone so far as taking photos of random women I find hot to jerk off to at home, I've taken womens clothing to wear at home cause it smells like a woman with the perfume, and I sometimes wear womens jeans cause it's the closest thing to a woman and I fantasize that im touching a woman taking her clothes off. My family picked up on me wearing women clothes and think im gay or crazy they don't understand why I do this.
I'm not sure if I have a problem, or if I'm REALLY hard up and once I have sex I won't have these crazy urges anymore.
This post has been edited by gonewild: Fri Jan 02, 2015 09:09 PM
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