Posted Sat Oct 03, 2015 06:19 PM
so I nuture an restore his sexual abilities ...
in the meantime I fall in love TOTALLY ...
We'll get a place together HE SAYS ....I LOVE YOU SO MUCH ....HUH
only two hours ago ....its ALL OFF ...
guess now - he's Mr SEX - he'll want a younger model.
Fooled again - for the LAST TIME.
Posted Sat Oct 03, 2015 06:53 PM
It's my personal policy to never volunteer for the same ass kicking twice .
Posted Sun Oct 04, 2015 09:31 AM
how did you meet this guy in the first place? Maybe the way you are looking for guys might be leading you to poor choices.
Posted Sun Oct 04, 2015 09:47 AM
Now I left with vibrations from yesterday morning' orgasms an I feel like killing him - I HURT so BAD -
been applying for application for moving across country this morning an changing my LL tomorrow -
shame one can't turn off feelings like a tap - F* B
the only thing that gives me any satisfaction is that me is a one-off - he'll need 5 women to replace me - all specialists at different things sexual -
F* duped F* HURTS like HELL.
finding solace with a bottle of port an plenty diazepam tablets
This post has been edited by the minx: Sun Oct 04, 2015 09:55 AM
Posted Sun Oct 04, 2015 10:01 AM
"And this too shall pass."
Be strong, friend. You've done nothing wrong. Better to believe in someone and end up hurt than to be a cynical lonely (not to mention horny) old maid. Love's a gamble, but the risk is one you just gotta take. The only alternative is a life left un-lived.
Posted Sun Oct 04, 2015 03:54 PM
Posted Sun Oct 04, 2015 08:32 PM
Posted Sun Oct 04, 2015 08:41 PM
He was a piece of shit & do you mourn every turd you flush or forget about it in under three minutes ?
Give him his three minutes , flush & wipe , all over .
Posted Mon Oct 05, 2015 10:17 AM
Posted Tue Oct 06, 2015 07:20 AM
Got to my Dr appointment yesterday morning - an he was there.
He said if you meant goodbye I'm leaving L***** now.
I said I was but trying to retain my dignity in being dispensed with.
He said - you slammed the phone down - before I had any chance to answer - an you can't always follow my (northern) dialect.
I love you - I always will - do you love me ?
an we are moving in together plus merlin plus PC ASAP.
ok's - call me stupid ....
Posted Tue Oct 06, 2015 07:32 AM
Posted Tue Oct 06, 2015 07:46 AM
I knew updating would make me look a jerk -
Mayhap I'l take a little break from here ...an quietly creep back in when everyone's asleep.
Posted Tue Oct 06, 2015 11:22 AM
Posted Thu Oct 08, 2015 07:19 AM
First - nor I nor ANYONE in my family hear "voices"....nope - not even from God.
Last night - after the first time I ever cooked him a meal - I'm fast asleep contentedly after
I'm woken by a wallop through the quilt - "UP - GET DRESSED and OUT" ...
so half asleep - I'm gathering my stuff together an getting dressed ....then I turn on the light to ask what I done ...
he says - what the hell you doing - where you going ....I tell him what he said -
HE DENIED saying ANYTHING ....Stop doing this he says - if you go we're done - you can't keep doing this to me -
so I sits in the chair - I'm crying - get yelled at for that - so I cry quiet as I can - then I eventually take off my jacket an slide back in bed with him -
all now "normal" ...except "why are you dressed" - an in morning " why do you look so P* off "
so I tells him again - an that am not P* off - am CONFUSED....still denial ... was my cooking THAT bad ? NO - your' a brilliant cook.... an I think - you got a sex queen who can cook - an is also your' FRIEND an confidante....OMG. do you know you got the lot with me - do you know how lucky you is ( see - me still know me )...
walking up to the vets then home ( 4 miles ) I'm trying to work these "quarrels" out ....
is it a "bad dream" he's reliving ...from as a sergeant during war - previous relationship PAIN - he sounded asleep sat when he said what he said above - an when I rang back an said "goodbye" an slammed the phone down then deleted all his contact details ...which I do after each " verbal battering" ....geez - I got pride... I'm not gonna be where I'm not wanted.
but he wasn't ASLEEP when he mockingly said I'm a lesbian (NO offence to Lesbian Ladies )
YES. I have no fuse. I do REACT immediately.
But short of taking my voice recorder with me to play back his "comments"....or IGNORE them (for me - impossible) am at a loss ....
"we can't be having these quarrels - an not even living together yet" he says ...an I think - who the F* is instigating them ....
luckily - cause I NEED A BREAK - he said very early last night - do you mind missing tomorrow - my LL due...
Posted Thu Oct 08, 2015 08:52 AM
Keeping my fingers crossed for both of you....
Posted Thu Oct 08, 2015 11:26 AM
I had hoped all this "crap" would be done with - now he CAN.
My "break-time" been extended to sunday ... yep he's working ...but nights without minx
this week he was suggesting a 3some with another Lady - my response NO
maybe he does have his eye on another Lady ...
he got VERY HIGH sex drive ...an IS very attractive ...
me don't / won't share
I just got a "feeling" ...
but after last night ....
I NEED a break
Posted Thu Oct 08, 2015 12:14 PM
at 60 NOPE -
at any age - for me - NOPE
gonna phone him later .... maybe hear a girl giggling ....
see how easily TRUST can dissipate ...
no TRUST - NO NOTHING