I'm not entirely sure if this is the best subform to post this in if it needs to be moved can the mods move it?
Preface: at the bottom of this is a summery of what I'm looking for and what I'm not looking for.
Im 24 years old. I grew up very conservative and religious. I got older and various beliefs and stuff have changed (which I don't want to talk about). I want to be more open about sexual stuff. I feel guilty if I look at porn or masturbate, and any sexual experience Ive had (which have been few and all online ) have left me feeling very guilty afterwords. I have a of hangups and problems. I can't just go to the bar and try to meet women because right now Im in a weird life situation thats out of my control where Im living pretty remotely for a while so online is basically it for me at this point in time (if we get to know each other I'll talk about that in more detail)
One problem I have is that I don't have a good view of people having sex. On a mental level I know that people who have lots of sex, pornstars, girls on gw, people in open relationships, ect. I know that they are fairly normal people, they have likes, dislikes, family, friends, ect. But regardless of knowing that Im still surprised by that, probably cause I haven't known anyone really well who was promiscuous (sorry I don't know what other word to use). Most of my life I looked down on people who enjoyed sex a lot and with many partners, I want to change that not only mentally but emotionally and actually get to know people who arn't ashamed of their sexual desires or acting on them.
I don't just want to talk about sex, I want to get to know you as a person. whats your favorite color? do you have any hobbies? ect. But I DO want to talk about sex. I don't know how to describe what I'm looking for and honestly Im super embarrassed even typing this out. basically I want someone who will push me, who will bring those topics up when Im to shy, who will encourage to be sexual, to watch porn or masturbate when I feel like I want to. And someone who would, if they were comfortable with it, actually be sexual with me in some manner (though nothing crazy, and all online, and more than likely without any video or pictures). Someone to help me just overall become more comfortable with the idea that Im human, I have sexual desires, and its ok to take care of those desires.
I realize this is a weird post, and most will just write me off as someone weird, a troll, or something else. I don't blame you for it thats a pretty reasonable though, nonetheless Im being legit here and would appreciate anyone who would be willing to get to know me and help me out some.
I have a lot of issues with guilt, and I got to work through that.
**What I AM looking for:**
-someone to chat with through skype, including voice chat (though I will not video chat and have no expectations that you would)
-Someone who is comfortable talking openly about there sexuality, their experiences. Im shy enough about talking about that stuff myself and could use someone who would prod me along.
-Someone willing to encourage me to be sexual, be it watching porn, masturbating, or something else. who is also willing to be patient with my various hangups as I work through them.
-Someone age 20 to 30, but those arn't hard and fast numbers.
**WHAT IM NOT LOOKING FOR:**
-Meeting in real person
-Swapping photos (I won't give you mine, if you want to send me yours thats fine but I'm not asking for it, I can hardly ask you to send me yours if I don't send you mine and Im not comfortable with that).
-Anything your personally uncomfortable with.
-to only talk about sex
This post has been edited by Q: Sun Apr 09, 2017 11:33 PM
Reason for edit:: Mentioned Skype