Posted Thu May 28, 2009 08:27 AM
I'm a duluded insecure idiot.
I have a fantastic Fiance, That I love to bits, Think the world of him to be exact, Would'nt know where to go or do without him.
I have this stupid double mind of which my insecurity comes from, It's like another person in my head ( no i dont think i'm crazy).
I trust my Fiance 101%, I know he'd never hurt me or ever cheat ( Actually crying writing this & im on my lunch break).
But my mind always thinks that he's got someone else, I feel like a right trustless twit eventhough i do trust him. He's does'nt nothing to make me think that he has someone else but it gets worse that i dream that he's cheatin, then its like my dream tells me its real.
I've been like this for years & Eventually it wore off me & i never had these thoughts/dreams for a long time etc But lately its back.
I feel really nasty coz all of a sudden I just mention have you got someone else & he says no, I love you so on. & i know he's telling the truth.
Am I just a pysho idiot.. ? I can't get this nonesense out of my head..
I've always been a natural worrier etc etc But this just takes the piss, & i want to get over it..
I love him so much and I don;t want to drive him away by being a phrat!!
Need Help ...
Posted Thu May 28, 2009 09:13 AM
Posted Thu May 28, 2009 11:06 AM
There's a cause for everything. The first question you need to be asking is when did they feelings start. Is there a justification behind these thoughts? You calling yourself a "natural worrier" makes me think this problem runs far deeper than a past relationship gone bad.
Posted Thu May 28, 2009 11:15 AM
Posted Thu May 28, 2009 12:15 PM
I certainly understand. I've been cheated on, and it's hard to get over, but your going to need to get over your fears. I honestly think your BF should understand, and help you get over your fears, but again, communication is key.
Maybe it's back because of insecurities of getting hurt again as things get closer to marriage.
So I followed your link and in one of your posts, it says your hubby, is that because you already see him as your husband? Sounds like insecurity. I'm just about the last guy to try and over-analyze, but it sounds like you have unresolved issues.
One more thing, I take it this guy isn't the same one who cheated on you last time, if you take my meaning.
BTW, I followed your link on your sig, and you are one sexy women.
Posted Thu May 28, 2009 12:36 PM
Yeh he does know about my past relationship & he does understand.. I just got this thing that i can;t keep claiming it on that..
I think i make myself worse sometimes
Posted Thu May 28, 2009 12:52 PM
You can make yourself worse if you dwell in the past. It sounds like you have a good man, and you need to look forward to the future, and not in the past.
Granted, the past is important to learn from, but you can't change it, and if you live in the past, it can effect your future.