Waiting for the first time.
Posted Tue Jun 30, 2009 06:49 PM
Although I love sex with women, it feels like I'm missing out on a great part of the human sexual experience; being penetrated by a man. Witnessing the changing expressions, movements, and vibrations of a woman being fucked opens a deep curiousity within me. I want to feel what she feels and to know what she knows.
I find very few men sexually attractive. I believe it comes down to personal vanity. We are all vain to a certain extent. We want a mate that is at least equal, preferably more beautiful, or in some regard 'blessed', than ourselves. Recognizing honesty over humility, I'm a very favorably appearing male. I'm tall, dark, and I work very hard to be in exceptional physical condition. Outwardly, I'm a very humble guy, but I definetly have a type of subdued vanity that subconciously controls my attraction to other males on a purely physical basis.
Whenever I see a male that I think is equal or better looking than myself based on my perception of beauty, I am instantly attracted and in some cases slightly aroused. I can only recall this attraction with a handful, maybe four or five guys in my life. There is also something very personal about my attraction to men. I don't even find male movie stars and models attractive. Perhaps if I met them in person I would.
I just recently began actively searching for a man to begin a sexual relationship with. I've had a lot of difficulty finding a man that I'm attracted to that is also interested in men. Although my urges have deeply developed into an intense and impulsive desire to get fucked, I don't want to settle for someone I may regret later or that I cannot grow with. I want my first homosexual experience to be everything I've imagined and a great awakening in my life.
Posted Tue Jun 30, 2009 07:53 PM
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Posted Sun Jul 05, 2009 05:51 PM
you ever play games, like she forces you to suck him?