I'm a 27 year old guy...I lost my virginity last night to this girl on our 3rd date. She is fun, smart, attractive with a hot bod, flirtatious. The whole deal.
I didn't tell her I was a virgin. I've read plenty on the internet about this, so I knew to take it slow, make sure she's aroused, etc. We spent a lot of time making out, then I slowly moved down her body kissing, blowing and fondling. I fingered her g-spot and clit at the same time, and gave her an orgasm. At least I'm pretty sure I did, I guess she could have been faking, but she was writhing and I felt her vagina get very hot and moist.
Anyway, she gave me a blow job, and it felt...okay...but not great or anything. Then I put on a condom (ultra sensitive) and we had sex. I barely even felt anything. I managed to cum after a good long while (I think she was getting tired!) but I only felt anything in missionary position, and only when I could make sure my penis was rubbing itself in the correct place.
Honestly, I thought sex would feel a lot better than that. It didn't feel half as good as masturbating. Plus, I wasn't all that turned on. I had always thought when I had sex for the first time I would be insanely aroused. But here I was with a beautiful naked girl and yeah it was *hot*, but I wasn't as turned on as I get from porn some times. I couldn't even get it up for a second time - when I look at porn, I can get it up within 15 minutes of coming usually!! It's almost as if the fantasy of porn was better than actually carressing a girl's body and breasts while we had intercourse. Intercourse just...didn't feel that good!
I hope someone can give me some advice here, is this usual first time male jitters, or has 15 years of jacking off to porn somehow broken something inside my mind so I can't enjoy the real thing? Can I fix this?? First things first, I am going to give up porn entirely.
Help me please, I am desperate here!!
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