I AM A MASOCHIST!
Posted Thu Aug 10, 2006 10:08 AM
For a while, I've known the idea of pain was exciting to me... and these past couple months I've done somet things that proved it... spanking, hot wax, toothpaste, nipple clips... but still just didn't know just how much I liked pain... but last night... fuck, I know I'm a masochist now.
I got extra strength IcyHot rub, and was a little nervous about it, but my Master had me put it on my nipples to start... now, the toothpaste on my nipples didn't do much of anything, but man did this stuff. I could feel the cool burning for AT LEAST a half hour, nonstop. He also had me rub some on my outer pussy lips, and shit did that hurt, it burnt like hell, and I couldn't imagine doing anything else... then, He said, "I want you to put some on your toy, and fuck your pussy." I couldn't say anything... I was shocked He was having me do this before I used it on my clit. It took me a few minutes... I slowly coated my toy, trying to prepare myself, I knew it was going to hurt, and I was nervous, but I really had no idea! Finally, I took a deep breath, and just did it, I pushed it inside and He had me start fucking myself right away. Now you have to realize, muscle rub works, when you rub it in... well fucking, had the very same effect. The pain was so intense, worse than hot wax, I've never felt such pain before... I might have been able to cry because of it, and I wanted to yell at Him for making me do it... but at the same time... it was having an amazing affect. I needed to cum with in a minute and it was so incredible, and I didn't stop there. The pain didn't fade either, it was just as intense, but as the more time passed... the more pleasure it induced. I had another incredible orgasm, and I could hardly breathe. The burning of my pussy (and also still my nipples) lasted and lasted, but eventually it because such a warm, dull feeling.
That is what really made me realize how much I love pain. Being able to get off just from such an intense pain... wow... that's masochism.
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Posted Thu Aug 10, 2006 06:25 PM
oh ok, sorry I misunderstood, slow day for me
Posted Thu Aug 10, 2006 06:35 PM
Ohhhh okay. So does he tell you what he wants you to do on the phone or online? Sorry that I'm asking a lot of questions. I'm just curious as to how it works is all.
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Posted Sat Aug 19, 2006 02:52 PM
I guess... if you aren't a slave, you could never understand what that means to hear... but it made everything worth it.. .really felt... acknowledged.