Posted Wed Feb 14, 2007 12:00 PM
I'm expecting the results of a very important exam in June, if I've succeded it means I'll have permanent job and steady salary for life, financially indeipendent at last, and my bf and I will make our relationship official. Otherwise, well, I keep working in shity jobs underpaid financially supported by parents; the waiting is killing me.
When I think of the possibility of failing this exam I have physical annoyances; at first they were simple headaches and insomnia; now my appetite's gone as well; losing pounds and developing an addiction to coffee. at the worst moments I can't breath and my heart hurts; today my whole body went numb and couldn't stop crying. Bf understands why this troubles me so much but freaked out when saw I couldn't breath. It's for a few minutes and then all goes back to normal cause I start controlling my breathing like I've learned. Could u suggest something other than seeing a shrink or taking meds?
I mean just the thought of failing gives me all those awful symptoms; I hate to think what will happen in June in case I've really failed this exam...
Posted Wed Feb 14, 2007 03:38 PM
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Posted Wed Feb 14, 2007 04:07 PM
So maybe I should work on meditation more? *dusting some old old parapsycology and wiccan books* hmmm c for u men it's so simple, u take on martial arts, kick butt and it's all ok!
Posted Thu Feb 15, 2007 06:48 AM
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