I Feel Like I'm Going To Explode
Posted Tue Aug 16, 2011 09:22 PM
I'm tired of being used, lead on, lied to, and taken advantage of by every girl on the planet. Every experience i've ever had with a girl I like, turned into an experience that makes me hate 99.9% of every females on this planet. All I have every taken from any relationship or, I thought, was a relationship, was that women are liars, cheaters, users, and whores. People I can't trust. Just today, a girl who I had very strong feelings for got back with an ex, when just last night she told me how much she cared about me, how much she liked me, how much we had in common, how wonderful a person I thought she was and so beautiful and thoughtful, like she was the most caring girl who's ever graced my entire life, and she turns around and gets back with an ex, after she said she was my girlfriend, claiming everything she said was true, and she never meant to hurt me, and that i was "blackmailing her with my emotions." The first girl I ever trusted after an entire year after a good relationship gone bad and she just threw me back into the I hate everyone world. I feel like my anger alone could just kill me sitting inside of me. She took the pussy way out and hid behind her beloved fucking idiot of an ex who buys love with money. She was the worlds biggest liar. And I fell for her. And my pent up anger is destroying me. I just want to watch the world burn. I'm tired of always being the one who gets used and hurt. I'm the guy who can never be happy, every time I am, something horrible happens. Every god damned time. And this time just made me snap. I liked her so much and then this all happens in a heart beat and i'm forcing myself from not destroying everything I see. I'm the guy who, because of this shit always happening, has the all time low of self esteem, constant depression, the I do nothing right ever feelings. I could just not wake up tomorrow and I'd be happier than living in this fucked up world where every girl thinks no decent guy is worth her time. Where every girl has the right to hurt every guy who as actually worth it. I'm just...... I can't stand it anymore.... I just want to lock myself in my room and never come out. I'm having the break down of break downs and with my sudden lack of all my happiness and distractions, my horrible anxiety gets worse and worse and I feel like i'm going to die.
I just felt the need to write this somewhere...
Posted Tue Aug 16, 2011 10:27 PM
Posted Tue Aug 16, 2011 10:39 PM
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Posted Wed Aug 17, 2011 12:02 AM
Posted Wed Aug 17, 2011 08:49 AM
Dude, you gotta strap on a pair and recognize who you're dealing with. I've been there, brother, but you have to pick yourself up, change what it is you do, and realize that they aren't any more valuable, desirable, or worthwhile than you. They aren't special. If you treat them like they're truly special (like how the say they want to be treated), they're going to act like they're special. That's why they can do whatever they want and get away with it. They always have plenty of men telling them they're special, beautiful, etc.
Posted Wed Aug 17, 2011 09:10 AM
I know what that feels like though. Had a good friend who has going through a rough patch. She showed me her true self and not what everybody else sees about her. Fell for her, asked her out twice, got denied twice, a couple of months later she is dating someone else. The excuse I got was that she wasn't ready for a relationship even though I was there through thick and thin with her and knew all her secrets pretty much. It was a very slow and deep knife into my back and right through my heart. Since then I've changed a few things about everything and still nothing from the ladies. I don't seem to be even dateable. Hopefully all this venting got most of that shit out of your system. I'm keeping mine in for now. Slowly and surely brewing inside.
I see that you are 20 so you've got years on me. Later in life it doesn't make it any easier, actually I think it is harder.
Posted Wed Aug 17, 2011 10:50 AM
Posted Wed Aug 17, 2011 12:54 PM
So if anyone has some miracle answer on how to get my perfect nerd girl, please, tell me the secret.
Posted Wed Aug 17, 2011 12:56 PM
I still want to break something...
Posted Wed Aug 17, 2011 04:40 PM
I still want to break something...
Just some quick advice regarding this site. Half of them are actual fakes just trying to get you to go to web sites. There are some good ones on here. Just don't look though. I know I don't for the most part. I look for the conversations on here more than anything else.
Posted Wed Aug 17, 2011 05:15 PM
As for being depressed......don't come here then. It's your choice, so don't do it to yourself. I've personally never met a girl on here who hasn't been the model of respect or made me feel welcome, but maybe that's their fault, not yours eh!
Posted Tue Aug 23, 2011 05:30 AM
Men are just as bad as women, we all lie, cheat, and make mistakes.
If you really want to find a loving woman instead of a slut, then get off this site and go soul searching. - places like the beach, library
or something where you will find nicer women instead of whores in clubs.
Posted Sun Aug 28, 2011 11:08 PM
Posted Wed Aug 31, 2011 04:02 AM
From your original post, it sounds like you have some mental health issues like anxiety and depression. Things like depression can cause us to seek out partners who we believe can "save" us from our problems. It feels like if we just find the perfect person, everything will be ok. The result is that we end up in an unhealthy, codependent relationship with someone who has some issues of their own, and it's doomed to fail.
I'm a firm believer in the old saying that you can't be happy in a relationship until you are happy by yourself. That doesn't mean that you have to want to stay single forever...it just means that you have to get over the idea that finding the perfect partner is going to solve your problems. My advice would be to seek help for your depression. Take care of yourself first. Once you've got your own life back on track, I'm betting you'll start attracting women who have THEIR lives on track, as well.
(Disclaimer: I'm a med student, NOT a licensed psychiatrist. Please speak to a professional about any mental health issues, and take the advice of strangers on the internet with a large grain of salt.)
Posted Tue Sep 13, 2011 06:25 PM
Your experience is not uncommon. You will meet others who are nicer, more compatible, better people in general, better or closer matches. Hang in there and look for the GOOD in people and in things. There is a lot of good in the world. If you look for problems, they are easy to find. Look for the good, and you will find it eventually.
You will be fine.....
Posted Thu Nov 10, 2011 12:28 PM
But I will play here only play
Big hug Hun
Posted Sun Nov 20, 2011 07:17 PM